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scholarwarrior-lad
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About me: Ever since I was little I found myself caught and trapped straddling both the worlds of science and art; don't get me wrong though, I don't entirely dislike it.

Like: Science, thinking, observation, people-watching.
Like + dislike: politics, the nature of good and evil.
Dislike: Brattiness, angry mobs, being cut off in traffic, too much conformity.

Watch as I churn out artwork, homework, writing, grind axes and try to find a date... just your typical atypical college student.

Current Residence: United States of America
Favourite genre of music: several
Favourite style of art: fractals, comic book, absurdism, some surrealism, pop
Operating System: varies; usually Windows and the one this human meat bag was born with (my brain & nervous system)
MP3 player of choice: No thank you
Favourite cartoon character: Spider-Man, Ninja Turtles and Canadian animation
Personal Quote: "For the Love of God please don't make an ass of yourself."
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You fear trying to meet people because you have internalized doubts and negative expectations that they will automatically dislike you.
It's not really the fear of rejection so much as it is perceiving there being small to nonexistent examples of acceptance (whether real or imaginary) in your life.
Trying to talk on the phone to request something (a service or to make an appointment) often fills you with a severe nervous dread.
Attempting to organize and set up a date with someone can be an agonizing experience.

In some ways it has gotten better but in other ways not so much.

When I was a teenager my throat used to close up and I'd blush too much when I'd try to talk to girls, to ask them out and stuff... that only went away when I was already partway through college ( :O ).

I still pretty much hate using phones most of the time.
I'll do it when I have to but a combination of bad experiences of ex-girlfriends refusing to respect my time and wracking me up giant phonebills which my dad would scream at me about and take out of my finances as well as typically having a crappy phone with either lots of signal interference or a loose speaker connection (both of which made hearing what the f*ck the person on the other end was trying to say exceedingly difficult) have left a sour taste in my mouth.

On the other hand, I have pretty much always for the most part enjoyed hosting parties... although I don't very often get invited to any (:roll: non-reciprocality is a bitch :bored:).
I don't get this fear "normal people" have of getting up and doing public speaking by themselves.
I tend to get more agitated over things like group work.

Working in a team is standable but only if/when everybody in the group actually wants to get the project done and gets that's why we were assigned it, not just some sort of a party or excuse to do too much of your own grandstand/hotdogging in your portion at the expense of the work as a whole (there's showboating if you're excited to explain something or that you realized a concept and then there's just being an arrogant asshole)...

To reiterate... I'd say social anxiety is about:
1. Feeling like you think everybody is going to hate or dislike you
2. Dreading particular social situations, be they exotic or mundane
3. Overestimating the amount of failures and believing that successful interaction or relationship building is if not impossible, then at least extremely improbable.

It's a set of baggage that either it makes you or you allow it to shape your consciousness by clogging up your "thought and feelings space"* with a bunch of negative schemas. :headache:

*Not an actual term that psychologists would use but I feel like it pretty aptly describes to you what I'm referring to with the meaning I had in mind.
  • Mood: Frustrated

Disclaimer:

These writings are the products of this author's fevered imagination so any resemblances to any persons living or deceased are a.) entirely coincidental, or b.) gravely unfortunate.

Hypothetically, which is a preferable way to die? 

56%
9 deviants said In a final blaze of glory against overwhelming enemies.
44%
7 deviants said Peacefully of old age after having a long, full life.

Living Epitaph: Study onward!

"Yes I laugh in the face of death. Now, more work! Wahaha!

Time to do my parents, and my many mentors and the tutors I've had over the years proud. It is my duty to become as well educated as I can to in my own small silly part steward this ungrateful community as a way to give back by being an upright citizen with a profession and accomplishments, yes?

That is what keeps me going no matter what. The belief that I need to make the investments other people made in me worthwhile and not a waste of money and time."

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scholarwarrior-lad:iconscholarwarrior-lad:
I'll give it a shot.
Tue Feb 4, 2014, 11:17 AM
ZombieDaryl:iconzombiedaryl:
DRAW VENTURE BROS!!!! *Whispers* P....please? :P
Sun Feb 2, 2014, 9:46 PM
scholarwarrior-lad:iconscholarwarrior-lad:
Viva la personal shoutbox?
Mon Jun 10, 2013, 1:42 AM
FireChic86:iconfirechic86:
I know it.
Thu Apr 5, 2012, 7:05 PM
scholarwarrior-lad:iconscholarwarrior-lad:
You probably could teach me to shoot better.
Wed Apr 4, 2012, 12:20 PM
FireChic86:iconfirechic86:
I think I could teach you to shoot well. I can pick off just about any target.
Tue Apr 3, 2012, 4:41 PM
scholarwarrior-lad:iconscholarwarrior-lad:
I'd take you up on the latter but I have possibly the worst aim in if not human history, at least the western hemisphere...
Tue Apr 3, 2012, 2:12 PM
FireChic86:iconfirechic86:
Tea is always helpful. And so is SD gundam. Another thing I find relaxing is shooting.
Tue Apr 3, 2012, 8:32 AM
scholarwarrior-lad:iconscholarwarrior-lad:
True.
Mon Apr 2, 2012, 12:48 AM
Palandrose:iconpalandrose:
or a good match in SD gundam
Sat Mar 31, 2012, 5:29 PM
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:iconcrazygrin:
crazygrin Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you for the llama! (:
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome.
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Pillowbot Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014
:chew:
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:la:
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Leyawiin-Raydjihn Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014  New member Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the llama back ^^ I see that you like both sciences and Art, like me :D
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome and yes, I do. :chew:
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ZombieDaryl Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
How are you man?Tard Slide 
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Been kinda busy.
I'll put in an update about that stuff today. :O
Some of it is pretty neat.
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ZombieDaryl Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
NEAT!
Lol, busy is good!
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yah. 

[:] Also, Chicks dig giant robots. I dig Giant robots, etc.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=koesW3…
Bit of a blast from the past. :happycry: I miss 2003 :lol:. That was a good year for Mecha, for a lot of reasons.
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Captain-Steve-Rogers Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the llama badge. :salute:  
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, thanks for continuing to throw that Vibranium-steel shield around.
:flagus:
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Captain-Steve-Rogers Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ha, you're welcome.
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reivax Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2014  Student Filmographer
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Indeed I do.
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reivax Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Student Filmographer
All kinds of questions to ask that I would've asked if I came over today.
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Stuff you want to ask me or stuff you want to ask mom?
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Shulkie Featured By Owner May 24, 2014
thanks for the llama badge.
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scholarwarrior-lad Featured By Owner May 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome.
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