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Lately I've been plagued by nightmares.

My father has grown more paranoid and mishears things I say, interpreting girls names out of it when that is not what I have said then demanding to know who they are.  He's also taken to snooping through my phone's text messages demanding to know who the people messaging me are which has basically forced me to be more disciplined in erasing everything at the end of the day.
He's like :roll:, worried I might have resumed dating or worse yet have a girlfriend again (Yes, as though at the age of 27, such activities and relationships were something completely unheard of).  And also, has been at it about how he thinks I'm a loser who SHOULD NOT have any friends.

It's the whining that he thinks I will never find a job and that he will have to get one for me plus how he thinks I will never get my degree that are the most irksome, however.

The prospect of dorm life this fall is looking better and better, I have to say.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Electric Six
So I heard about this thing called a virtual girlfriend (vgirl for short) that was designed with lonely people in mind...
To the best of my knowledge computer AI isn't sophisticated enough yet in any known instance to hold full blown conversations where a program has its own insights (even vgirls) but you can get it to behave in such a way that it will pretend to be listening...

They cost money, and I think some are fairly sophisticated. I'd imagine you can tinker with their voice and appearance.
If you'd asked me awhile ago what I thought about the idea I'd say I thought it would only appeal to desperate losers.
However, I've had such poor luck dating that if I could afford one, I might (:?) consider it someday. Yes, I did see the movie Her.
And yes, I think Krieger's holographic comedy relief anime/hentai "waifu" in Archer was probably a reference to vgirls. :lol:

I also heard some guy in Japan tried to marry his vgirl... and am not sure how that would work. Would the priest say something to the effect of: With this memory card, I thee wed?
:shrug:

My dad is on my case that he thinks it is bad I have friends and go out sometimes on dates.  :roll:
I explained to him that it isn't that often I do things with my friends and that I only ever go out every once in a blue moon (which, stung... and immediately afterwards I realized I'd walked into a conversational trap. Self-sabotage is go! :slamhead:).  He tries to pathologize everything I do.

I'm a nerdy guy, I don't need those kind of constant blows against my self esteem from him but his dumb ego is so big that he perceives anybody else doing or getting to have anything (instead of it all always only going to him) as a threat. :depressed:

[I'm] Transferring to a dorm this fall. I hope they have high speed internet.  May have to web proxy in order to stream.  Campuses tend to be more restrictive of the kinds of sites you are allowed to look at. :roll:

The downside to a computerized companion in my opinion would be that since it is already pre-programed to like you, I feel like that's sort of a cheat and takes the challenge out of it.  Doesn't exactly count as a "true relationship" if you build it from a box and don't have to develop it from the ground up in stages... :shrug:
Most of the time, girls don't even want to give me a chance though* so if one of these days in the not-too-distant future, you see some old pervert talking to his watch or taking a blinking sexbot that has simulated emotions to the movie theater, out dancing, etc. remember the humble early 21st Century nerd. :headache:
Also, to me the notion of having a bot that is designed to like you still smacks of egotism to a certain extent. :bleh:
:dizzy:

*Many is the time my attempts at dating, both online and the traditional offline type, have resulted in an urge to want to crawl into a hole and die.
I also feel like that trite aphorism about how There is somebody for everyone has an unsaid part in parenthesis which goes (except you).
Revisiting the vgirl concept, a few of the advantages to having one would be dad can't scare her away and "she" probably isn't going to care if I'm broke or not, have my own car or an apartment or not, etc.
Disclaimer: Yes this journal is a teaser/bumper to shamelessly self-advertise/pimp & hawk the science fiction short stories I've done for GameCraftsmen.


Actually, more closer would be the year 3299, since that's the millennium and decade set Mecha Galaxy takes place in.
thegalaxygathering.blogspot.co…

I've published a bunch (more than 30) articles for the Galaxy Gathering Blog on Blogspot to enrich the lore of Mecha Galaxy, a social media online game Syfy Channel Games licensed this San Francisco based Indie developer GameCraftsmen to make.  It's sort of a spinoff of the Syfy channel's reality show from last year Robot Combat League (Season 2 may be premiering towards the end of this year... I think).

There aren't hyperdrives, and basically Earth got so polluted following that advent of a near future placed WWIII and a few other things that civilization has taken to space.  By the time the 3200s have rolled around we've already been in space for a long time, with permanent colonies and space stations.  Also, technologies have changed and the discovery of alien artifacts have enabled utilization of these sort of warp gates powered by ridiculously powerful electric batteries.  Politics are somewhat mercantile, even neofeudal and it's a scramble for dominance of space trade routes as the powers that be explore the edges of this galaxy and the other surrounding ones gate by gate.  People battle in mecha, which yes, are totally cool and really customizable from the weapons to the cockpit, chassis, engine and shields.
Thanks to the bulldog like determination of my editor and cowriter, the devs are now entertaining the idea of basing a new level or boss off of one of the stories I've done for their game (:D). I get paid for the serials and reviews in vouchers which can be used to buy premium virtual currency in the game's market, so they aren't dollars but still, that counts as a type of payment :lol:.
Anyway, I threw together two different interpretations in Hero Machine 3.0 of what my character might look like which I'll provide links to below:
Myco by scholarwarrior-ladMycobacter by scholarwarrior-lad
Mycobacter is a former genetic engineer from Mars of NeoAmerican family origin whose outer layer of skin is in symbiosis with bacteria that were hybridized with recovered ancient alien DNA (which is what gives his skin the pale, off white grayish tint).  He likes to tinker with the loadouts of his mecha and belongs to a clan that are a combination mercenary and martial artists.  They have their own sort of a giant robot karate/mma fighting style and a "Mecha Bushido" philosophy.
Lucha Libre is an interesting Mexican take on professional wrestling. 
What I like about it is it lends itself well to the culture of comic book superheroes.
Especially when the wrestler is of the masked variety, enmascarado.  There's the kind of theatrics you find typical in North American prowrestling like team ups and grudge matches that have kayfabe backstories but what makes a luchador like a superhero is they maintain a secret identity.

Two well known luchadores are El Santo and Azul Diablo.
Was going to have a date today. She called me up at the last second to cancel. Work emergency. Said we could try to reschedule. Didn't get back to me about when.*

:hmm: I feel like girls never really like me much.

Geeked out watching Stan Lee's Cocktails with Stan vlog from World of Heroes, a Movie Macabre Elvira marathon on Hulu and writing stuff for the Mecha Galaxy editor.

Online dating and offline dating are both rather disappointing.  What I'd like is somebody to go out with. What I generally end up with is somebody who texts and you can text back for awhile and makes a bunch of empty promises ...until she gets bored and decides she doesn't like you anymore or that you're "just too weird**." :roll:
Fuck that noise. :unimpressed:

Made smoothies last night with little bits of leftover fruit from my mom's cocktails and some stuff in the back of the freezer.
Life is pretty much shitty and rather lonely as is par normal and I'm still getting surcharged and penalized to death at my father's bank (I deposited $238, spent about a hundred over the course of the month and it gouged itself down to $25.25... I am really starting to dislike Bank of America). 
He :puke: tried pushing the I should move into a dorm but only if he got to move in there with me (no fucking thanks, you aren't a college student and are totally a control freak so thanks but no thanks, you bastard) mindfuck again too.

:depressed:
*She turned out to be a phoney too. They always try to make you out to be the badguy when you ask why they aren't making good on their promises. :iconlesighplz:
** I have a bit of a hard time understanding the reasoning behind this because in almost any other context it's that little bit of weird that makes people cool and interesting. Why would you only want to go out with a guy who is super extra normal? That sounds boring. :frustrated:

Starting to get too effing depressed to get out of bed much again.  I do make myself get out of bed to talk to my mom a little bit in the morning and do some chores but take most of my meals into my room or the garage and keep reading and drawing.  Trying to get my mind off the lack of people.  It isn't working very well though.

Talked to one of my friends. Things between him and his girlfriend are going sour, and through his understatement and euphemisms it sounded like she was putting him through kinda the emotional meat-grinder (hey, I've been there!).  He's a little eccentric like I am so I told him my best bit of advice in those situations which is run, don't walk.  That bit of gallows humor elicited a chuckle out of him.  :hmm:
Here's the thing.

Every so often after enough times getting burned I'll consider deleting my online dating profile but then right as I'm about to delete it there will be one or two people who sound just so bloody interesting or amazing that I don't pull the trigger because f*ck it, I'd like to talk to them a bit to see what they are like.

What I typically end up doing instead is tearing apart my old profile and rewriting it from the ground up shorter, more cynical and somewhat more sarcastically than the previous incarnation.
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Ever since I was thirteen I thought that having a girlfriend might be pretty cool.

I'd still just like somebody I could take out to things and with me to stuff.  Apparently this tends to be a recipe for ridiculous over the top psychodrama and passive-aggressive bullshit.  I wish I could let it go.
Nope. Still straight.

I like women.  They tend not to like me.

Ask people out. Get rejected. Ask some more. Get rejected more. Some pretend to accept you. Don't believe it for a second.  Dead inside.  That I am a guy scares people.  I had no idea that just wanting to go for a cup of coffee and to have a bit of a chat was apparently so objectively terrifying.

This is garbage. My female friends don't act this way, so why is it when I am dating girls think they get some sort of a pass to behave in this manner?

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I just want somebody I could take to stuff who doesn't make a big huge deal out of it.  Dating shouldn't have to be like pulling crocodile teeth.  Why is it so bloody herculean?

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Brutally honest stuff I decided to put in my profile after the last snafu:

Fun trivia: I don't have a criminal record and have never gone to jail. I will expect to be treated as a potential criminal though by say your parents for being the jerk who "came from the big scary Internet" and is daring to try to date their baby girl (and who is probably not someone they personally would have handpicked!).
I don't smoke and rarely drink. I don't mind if you have some piercings or tattoos but I don't because I do stuff with chemicals and electricity often enough that it would be a hazard. I don't care too much about what religion you have. Atheists are also welcome! If you say you like Jesus okay good, fine, that's alright but if you start lecturing me about End Times stuff then no thank you.

About the worst thing about me is sometimes I swear but I've been working on doing it less and will make a conscious effort not to in front of children and old people.

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I even put together a how-to for dummies about how to have a good first date:

Luke's tips for a sane time going out:
Protip: Just be blunt up front and *honestly* tell me if you'd like to go out with me or not (seriously!). It'll waste less of your time and less of mine.

For a first date, I'd probably opt for something small like a basic chat over a cup of tea or coffee at some cafe for a start to see if we have any common interests to try and bond over. Don't worry, it will be casual. Just wear clothes! Sheesh (try not to overthink it).

If you're nervous then bring a friend. Follow the basics. Call somebody to say where you'll be and for how long because it's meeting somebody new.
Make sure your phone battery is properly charged before setting out.
If you want a parent to be a chaperone during the date to be "extra safe" then I'm totally okay with that. I know how to act around a person's parents.
A cafe is a basic because it's something in a public place where if we don't gel then we don't have to see each other again and it's no big deal. Very easy to disappear into the crowd if everything goes sour.

Just try not to be an overdramatic twatwaffle and everything will be hunky-dory.

If you want to have a second date we could probably go to a museum or see some sort of an art gallery opening.

I don't want a fwb or a "hook-up". This part usually scares the crap out of people but (wait for it) I'd like some female companionship. You know, if there's some physical affection or you want there to be during the relationship I'm not stressing because let's face it, cuddling and a hug or a kiss can be kind of nice. Especially if you know the other person has had a really shitty day. But be sensible and don't even bother asking about sex right away. Go slow ok? We'll take things as they go, a little bit at a time.


I prefer texting to calls because my cell plan really sucks but if we get along okay and can really trust each other I may give you my landline and we can talk sometimes through that.

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And then the crickets started chirping.

(6/24/14) Revised Online Dating Profile:
Do you pass my test? I'm looking for somebody who can behave herself in public and I could form a nice solid relationship with who doesn't mind that her boyfriend would be a bonafied art geek and unapologetically a sci/tech nerd*. I'm the type of guy who goes who cares what the other women look like, it's the one who I'm on a date with who is automatically a notch above the rest (because I'm going out with you, not them - sheesh).

Apparently I'm a pretty decent writer and I started getting paid for some of my science-fiction short stories.

I like to draw, tell jokes and act a little bit sometimes.

*I've done genetics research and possess a minor in chemistry. My ultimate long term goal is to break into and climb the biotech/pharmaceutical corporate ladder & someday, possibly to have my own R&D firm; developing next-gen/future medicine, today!

Fun trivia: I don't have a criminal record and have never gone to jail. I will expect to be treated as a potential criminal though by say your parents for being the jerk who "came from the big scary Internet" and is daring to try to date their baby girl (and who is probably not someone they personally would have handpicked!).
I don't smoke and rarely drink. I don't mind if you have some piercings or tattoos but I don't because I do stuff with chemicals and electricity often enough that it would be a hazard. I don't care too much about what religion you have. Atheists are also welcome! If you say you like Jesus okay good, fine, that's alright but if you start lecturing me about End Times stuff then no thank you!

About the worst thing about me is sometimes I swear but I've been working on doing it less and will make a conscious effort not to in front of children and old people.

I like to do stand-up material during open mic night at bars and clubs... because it's fun! The same way some people have fun singing stuff during karaoke. Mainly it'll be observational, absurdist, pop and bits of political humor.


First Date:
Protip: Okay, here comes the ugly part: I have a dash of autism. It makes me a bit emotionally dense, so I may not always automatically figure out your feelings very quickly every time and I'll ask stuff to make sure I'm getting it right during the times when I don't. That isn't to be an insensitive monster but is because I'm genuinely confused. Emotionally hot cultures tend to be the least forgiving of this.
If you want to be helpful: Just be blunt up front and *honestly* tell me if you'd like to go out with me or not (seriously!). It'll waste less of your time and less of mine.
Otherwise, my policy on rainchecks and rescheduling is I'll give you a three strikes rule. Once is reasonable, by the 2nd or 3rd time though I figure something's probably up so I'll probably ask you about it. I'm not psychic, so I'm just trying to figure out whether stuff came up for real twice or you're being a lying sack of crap by the third time. That's a fairly generous margin of error, right?
An autistic person is a bit like a Vulcan, to put it in Star Trek terms. Sure we've got feelings too but we aren't super great at analyzing them in others so when in doubt, logic out.
For a 1st date (if there is one), I'd probably opt for something small like a basic chat over a cup of tea or coffee at some cafe for a start to see if we have any common interests to try and bond over. Don't worry, it will be casual. Just wear clothes! Sheesh (try not to overthink it).
If you're nervous then bring a friend. Follow the basics. Call somebody to say where you'll be and for how long because it's meeting somebody new.
Make sure your phone battery is properly charged before setting out.
If you want a parent to be a chaperone during the date to be "extra safe" then I'm totally okay with that. I know how to act around a person's parents.
A cafe is a basic because it's something in a public place where if we don't gel then we don't have to see each other again and it's no big deal. Very easy to disappear into the crowd if everything goes sour.
Just try not to be an overdramatic tw*twaffle and everything will be hunky-dory.
If you want to have a 2nd date (and you didn't decide to run screaming the opposite way on realizing that yes, other people are not exactly the same as you in every way) we could probably go to a museum or see some sort of an art gallery opening.
I don't want a fwb or a "hook-up". This part usually scares the crap out of people but (wait for it) I'd like some female companionship. You know, if there's some physical affection or you want there to be during the relationship I'm not stressing because let's face it, cuddling and a hug or a kiss can be kind of nice. Especially if you know the other person has had a really shitty day. But be sensible and don't even bother asking about sex right away. Go slow ok? We'll take things as they go, a little bit at a time. My cell plan sucks so text me or call me on my landline
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Still plugging along with those bioinformatics modules.

Not sure if I'll have all six issues of Advanced Iron Man and Advanced Dr. Strange out in time for the June 26 deadline.

I've got 3 down for Advanced Iron Man with ideas for what to do in Issue #4 and two down for Advanced Dr. Strange with a start put in on the third issue.

As a bonus I'll be throwing in issue #1 of Advanced Ghostrider soon with those other ones but probably won't have all six stories of that one out on time with the other two titles.
  • Watching: MEGAS XLR
It gets to me sometimes...

Every time I get dumped or break up my dad gets this almost smug attitude where he expects me to give up on women altogether and hopes that I never want to date again.

He also thinks I should never have or participate in any extra-curricular activities and getting to do independent studies, even regular coursework from my research professor has been quite the drama-saturated and guilt trip ridden uphill battle for me.  Dad doesn't like that he wants to publish me and likes my technical + science communication writing.  My old man fancies himself a self-styled writer and likes telling me he thinks I suck, so outside third parties (such as college professors) telling me I don't kind of fries his goat.

He pretends to be "concerned" about my grades when he tries to verbally forbid me from attending events or derails me from completing assignments on my own.  I don't buy it anymore because of how angry he gets during times when I insist on doing homework on my own.  He's tried explaining that away as just being worried I won't be able to finish it on time left to my own devices but I find that his low faith in my abilities has a tendency to be very self-serving in its nature.  If that were the case and it was truly parental concern, he wouldn't then turn around and punish me for when I do accomplish or achieve things on my own.

The few times I do call him out on this behavior he'll first try to deny it, then rage when I stick to my guns instead of accepting his revisionist history version of what he feels went on and spends the next day or two whining at my mom about how mean I supposedly am to him and how if he had his way he'd have full dominance and complete control over me because that pesky free-will thing has got to go. :roll::headache:
  • Mood: Irritated
  • Listening to: Yasuyuke Okamura - Viva Namida
So, as usual, the United States Congress is shooting itself in the foot.

Who would have guessed that outsourcing our manned space program to the Russians wouldn't come back to bite us on the ass?

Well, as it turns out... our over-reliance on Soyuz rockets to send things to the ISS is a handicap.

Check this out... I get that we don't like Russia flexing their muscle in the Ukraine... but since the Ukraine is part of Eastern Europe anyway, well, our attempts to exert our "World Policing" shtick by telling the Russian Federation to back off down there are ticking 'em off.  So now their prime minister is saying they want to sanction us... from using any of their cosmonaut tech.  Gee, maybe outsourcing everything hand over fist to some guys we've never exactly been terribly close with in the first place was a super idiotic idea?

At the same time, Congress is punching holes in the long term plan to send Americans to Mars by the 2050s and is whining that they don't like money being earmarked toward developing any new heavy lifting rockets.
As a person who lives in one of the Space States (California is a major leading player in the aerospace industry and is home to many companies that manufacture rocket parts) I feel like supporting a manned space program would help create JOBS. Lots of JOBS (as in LOCAL JOBS). Hello, creation of jobs is something both the Democrats and Republicans on paper say they care about.  It's a nonpartisan issue.  Houston, guess what? We DO HAVE A PROBLEM. Florida, wipe the dust off Kennedy Space Center and Cape Canaveral, Hawaii, I know you guys have a NASA research station, and California, wake up and smell the overpriced Soy Latte.  Both coastlines have Space States and should be kind of at least somewhat irritated by this recent turn of events.

I get that the other States that don't have space centers or aerospace companies want to put their foot down and crush the American Space Program.  They've tipped their hand and made this point abundantly clear.  It doesn't pass their "So what?" test.  They don't see space agency issues as something personally affecting them.  Look buttwipes, :threaten: you like having satellite based telecommunications systems to be able to use your cellphones, right?  You can thank the space program you are trying your best to get rid of for that even being possible.  :rage:
Numerous advances in things from microcomputing to containers and instant prepared foods owe their very existence to the Space Program, and this is how we show our thanks?  Our very quality of life we've come to enjoy as consumers right now in this day and age is in a large part due to innovations that came from the Apollo and Gemini rocket programs in the 60s and 70s and the Space shuttle program of the 80s and 90s.

Commercial space exploration is trying to pick up the slack where it can but the whole political climate seems to be going: "Fuck space.  Who cares?"
Look, if you defund and privatize space exploration, then you've gotta take care of the backend stuff down the road.  Competition for service contracts has to be seen as lucrative.  Get your thumb out of your ass and jump on that we just pissed off our biggest foreign supplier of transportation/freight we use for the International Space Station.  Take advantage of this negative event to spearhead initiatives for something positive for once in your miserable bureaucratic and moneygrubbing lives.

I wrote a letter to Zoe Lofgren about it and am going to tweet Mike Honda at some point too.  This whole thing is stupid as hell. :headache:
:slamhead:

You'd rather we go through another disaster ala the Detroit Automotive?
Look, this could help revitalize people and businesses who got hurt during that.
You could refit some of the car factories for making rocket engines instead and breathe new life into the American Industrial centers that were hardest hit by the transition to a post-industrial service based economy in the 2000s.

:dollarus: This is a tremendous opportunity people, and you can't expect to make money without expending some.  That's a basic lesson in business.:dollarus:
:dollarus:
3 of my short stories based around the Syfy Channel game Mecha Galaxy which is a spinoff of their show Robot Combat League have made it into the game's anthology stories and lore section.  :D

I detail the retail service postindustrial culture of the "Old Mars Colony" and how they worked their way into sponsoring some of the participants touring their own circuit of the new Robot Combat League for a piece of the pie since as the game states, by the year 3000 robot boxing/prowrestling has become a very popular sport.
Most fighting whether military-wise or for sport by the 3200s comes to rely on multiton motorized metal death machines that are human or android piloted.

So the battles in mecha galaxy take a flavor that is a combination concept science fiction and blue collar stuff like destruction derbies, professional wrestling and monster truck rallies.

Here's a rendition where Thomas Dolby and Buzz Aldrin perform a duet.
Original music video from MTV2 (retrieved from Daily Motion): www.dailymotion.com/video/x11l…

I don't mean to sound ungrateful or like some whiny pervo because I do appreciate my female friends but... it does get SEXUALLY FRUSTRATING to have everybody always only want to be "JUST-FRIENDS" with you all the time.  No, you can't Weird Science up a girlfriend via 3D printing but that does make me think of another zany and whimsical 80s mad scientist themed song:

www.dailymotion.com/video/x5i9… <- couldn't find one containing the same music video outside of youtube, sorry.

I really hate it during family gatherings when relatives ask me if I'm seeing somebody special.
Me: :| "No." Them: "Why?" Me: :facepalm: (you only ask this just about every time you guys ask me that and I reply no, you'd think it'd be pretty routine for everyone by now): "Because I'M A NERD, GENIUS! MY GAWHD! @#$%&*^!!!" :slamhead:

Every time there's an office homicide or school shooting, some people are like: :tantrum: BAN ALL THE GUNS. NAO.
They also insist it is that weapons are too easily accessible must be why there is violence.
Yet, I don't think that is the solution or really the entire reason.

I think lack of media messages saying that hey, it isn't okay to go out and kill people _is a piece of the puzzle for how come unconscionable murderers happen.
So yeah, it isn't cool to freaking make innocent bystanders eat hot lead just because you're personally pissed off that your life is shitty (duh).
:iconhoratioplz:
Hi.
I noticed something that: a.) The majority of my female friends tend to be kinda plus sized
 and
b.) I happen to like fat chicks.

  Some of you might think it's gross but I'm pretty sure I'd be revolted in a similar manner if the shoe was on the other foot at whatever bit of kink you happen to have (for example, I cannot for the life of me understand foot fetishists and probably never will).

For starters they tend to be more cuddly than the skinny bitches.  Also, since the majority of dating activities tend to involve consumption of & sharing food, well, you've got a better chance of it not striking out if you go with somebody who enjoys good food (hey, dating that involves food makes more sense if your date is somebody who doesn't HATE eating).

I'm thinking I'd like to someday try to do a comedy gig at a BBW bash since I've started building a repertoire of skinny bitches jokes.

For your entertainment I will now share my two best ones so far:
Joke #1: Fat chicks be like: Heck yes I'll share a plate of ribs with you, now move over! and Skinny bitches be all: Excuse me, I need tweezers to dissect this crouton one crumb at a time. :sherlock:

Joke #2: You know you're an FA when the girl you notice who is laughing her ass off at the bar still has plenty leftover.
  • Reading: R
  • Watching: MST3K
  • Playing: Dawn of the Dragons
I got dumped again but I'm meh okay with it.

I mean, I wouldn't mind actually being friends with this gal because her jokes are funny and she's nice and stuff (you know, as in actually friendly). I really don't have anything bad to say about her either, mind you. :shrug:

And I'm not mad at her or anything (says I physically remind her of her brother, so yeah, I can certainly see how that would be off-putting)
but I'm kinda back to feeling lonely again so whatever.
:roll:

It seems with a lot of women I meet they tend to either want to do the girl thing or the friend thing but have a bit of a hard time getting used to the idea of both.  On the other hand:
1960s BatMobile by scholarwarrior-lad
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Going to try to upload a picture I took of the 1960s Batmobile onto here from my phone too.  It was taken sideways so I'll have to rotate it and maybe touch it up a bit. There we go...
<- Yes I'm watching the KTMA Season 0 and 1 early MST3K episodes, except for the missing/lost 3, mind you.  Which seems like kind of a bummer because The Mysterions From Mars sounds like it'd be a good episode.  Those cheesy Thunderbirds puppets would be good riff material, right?
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  • Playing: Mecha Galaxy
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I am behind schedule in Advanced Marvel.
To still do:
> Before June (sixth I think? Need to double check the group reminder ) with my fanfictions I need to:
 a. Pump out 4 more issues of Advanced Doctor Strange, work out the time-travel crossover arc Glad101 and I worked out with The Invaders/Howling Commandos vs. a tesseract empowered Himmler and his creepy as hell Occult Black Sun warrior cult.
b.  Finish issue #3 of Advanced Iron Man and start working on the really cool issue #4 I was talking about with TheHero-Guy.  Issue #5 and 6 are still in the works but 3 is 8 or so pages in and #4 is conceptually laid out.  It features a lost cosmonaut version of Titanium Man and a race against time by Iron Man, Crimson Dynamo and Black Widow to prevent nuclear WWIII. 
c. Then for wave two at some point role out a series featuring a Ghostrider who is merely an outlaw biker reformed former member of a cycle gang (instead of a stunt cyclist) with that whole deal with a devil soul problem shtick to work out.  Can't you just start to feel the open road and having to go to a rest stop to pick the bugs out from the teeth of your undead skull already? :skull::onfire:

  • Listening to: C&C Red Alert: Hell March
  • Reading: texts from a cool lady
  • Playing: Mecha Galaxy
Next time, do not take my father with me to a comic con.

He got mad and harassed me each time I stopped at a booth to browse and decide which comics to buy, made up some bullshit to my bestie that he thinks I blow through "hundreds of dollars" (at which point we each coughed and said "you mean tens") and that I supposedly never earn any of my money because how dare I want to buy things... when we tried pointing out to him that the main idea of a comic book convention is to buy comic books he got irritated and would nag me to "hurry up" because he wanted to see more things, in addition to the sniping about why was I buying some comic books and that he doesn't like me buying stuff ever.
Mom and I pointed out to him after that I was trying to spend carefully to make sure I didn't exceed my budget I'd set out.

He just doesn't [want to] get it.

Oh and then he whined about how my friend and I weren't more "respectful" of him...
Here's the stupid part... when my father says respect what he really means is unquestioning obedience and sufficient brown-nosing for an ego boost.
Yeah... I don't do that.
And he hates me for it.  So my friend and I made fun of him just the teeniest bit with a tiny amount of sarcasm and he got all kinds of butthurt about it.
The man can dish but he can't take.

I have a hard time respecting a man who screams at me all the time that he thinks I am bad at everything and worthless, takes most of my money and most of my mom's money so that we have to choose between leisure and basic necessities, while he hoards most of his paychecks entirely for himself, rather than contribute to the communal family pot of cash, blows his and the money he pilfers from us on ridiculously extravagant crap for himself and often tells me to go kill myself because then he thinks he'd get to have more of my stuff instead of me.

It's... very draining.

He was also pleased as punch awhile back to give me a bit of exposition that he withholds my invoices to the State owned company I work for providing respite care services for my handicapped brother about a month or two behind the current one just so that I don't have any cash to be able to spend.  For many years I gave him my entire paycheck to contribute, with little to no thanks, towards our house's second mortgage (to the tune of $20,000), the whole time him blathering nonsense about how I supposedly never contribute anything and cost him too much money (he thinks), when mom and I did a little digging and realized that not only was he not just spending it on the mortgage and spending the leftover bits on personal stuff but that he'd finished paying the second mortgage off months and months ago and had felt content to continue the arrangement where I surrender my entire paycheck to him. :frustrated:

This is punishment for my and my mother's having insisted I get to keep at least half of what I earn instead of dad getting to have all of it to spend how he chooses.

:slamhead:

The guy wants me to have all the responsibilities but none of the privileges. 
  • Reading: texts from a cool lady
I have my second date tomorrow with somebody funny and sweet and clever.

I'm going to take her to the art museum and buy her some lunch.

I like this girl, I like her a whole bunch.

She has similar taste in strange movies to some of my other friends so I've got a hunch,
they'll like her too.

Life is good.

Then on Saturday... The Batman Museum has an exhibit on loan for this year's BigWow ComicCon. :batman:
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:sumo:

A discussion with Tylscifur last night got me to thinking, I've yet to throw together a cookbook but it's one of those things I've thought about doing before a couple times.
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I think I'll talk a little about what it is that I like about women, as a heterosexual and semi-sapiophilic male. Lol.

I like their minds, it's cool to see what strategies a chick uses to solve a problem or ideas she has to get something done.
I like that they've got hips you can rest your hands on for dancing or a close embrace while talking to each other about stuff you've read or movies you've seen.
I like when they crack a smile because they're happy to see ya or you told a joke they like (in an Earthy way I also like when they laugh and it makes the curvy bits jiggle a little, too).  Heck, I like when they give you a big hug and when they kiss ya, too.

And you know what?

That is perfectly normal an attitude for a straight guy to have so I won't hear of any attempts at pathologizing it.

I like women who are funny.  I'm a bit of a joker too so if we can get each other to laugh that's usually a good early indicator that we'll get along okay.
I don't know why but there's also something though a bit more difficult to place that I find adorable about when they have a little dog or a cat for a pet.

I don't too often come across a lady who wants to draw "with me" or do something creative together though.  That's why I feel like any prospective girlfriends who do offer, or, failing that, a gal who wants to color something you put together in black and white or help name some of your creations would blow me away.

You've got to watch out for if she says she is creative (in those exact words) as a redflag though... the only people who tend to describe themselves that way (right off the bat) are the overdramatic ones who are poseurs and fancy themselves "la artiste", and they overwhelmingly tend to be insufferable.  People who really ARE creative don't have to justify it, they just ARE.
See somebody drawing or solving a problem or cooking?  Those are creative things.  Listen to somebody go on about how they'd like to be creative and how much better they think they are than everybody else, often and at-length? That is not.

I'm happy to be going out with somebody who is not overly self-absorbed and histrionic for a change.  Oh my God, she actually asks me how I am doing sometimes instead of just talking about herself. Jawdrop  (Inside my head every so often I'm pinching-myself just to be sure it's still real) I don't walk away from spending time with her feeling blood-drained.  & that too is a good thing.

Asks me about the stuff I study instead of rant + rampage = rantpaging at me how some person somewhere said to her at one point in time in her life that it might be evil so I (by irrational reasoning) must be (evil also) for practicing it too.

We joke about both being evil, and get that we're joking about it.  <- You would be uber surprised how many people seem to get off on the panic-highs of purposely not understanding when people are using sarcasm (I kid you not! Unimpressed).

And oh my God, no big scenes and temper tantrums in public! So refreshingly delectable!
The prospect of a relationship where I don't burn myself out continually providing endless mollycoddling and calming (and that this is a possible & very real real thing, which people can have) is rather attractive.

That's what has been missing from my previous few relationships.  A GirlFriend should be somebody you can have fun with who doesn't make everything an endless headache full of constant drama and emotional abuse!  As in a friend, not a fiend.
Somebody who treats you like a human being rather than constantly rant at you how very immoral she thinks you and everything else around her are.
& somebody who can occasionally laugh at herself, too.

That's all... rather a breath of fresh air.
Once again I'd have to say that my favorite Amendment under the US Constitution is the First Amendment.  The reason why that is is because without it, people wouldn't be able to write satires of other people and things which rub 'em the wrong way.