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An exercise in conspiracy theory:

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 23, 2015, 2:44 PM
It occurs to me that the details of Alan Turing's death are shoddy enough in the right places to have possibly been doctored by MI6.
For one thing, people who commit suicide don't typically have freshly penned grocery and to do lists for what they plan to do the rest of the week at the site of their death instead of a suicide note. For another, there is some general disagreement about whether the death via cyanide absorption was purely due to inhalation due to proximity with his DIY home gold electroplating kit or from accidental ingestion of a chemically laced apple.  It would not be a big stretch to figure Turing's well known daily snacking habit would be something to include in a dossier. :sherlock:
Also, there was never any chemical analysis done on the apple.  His body was cremated (which is rather convenient since ashes are much harder to run analysis on than an embalmed body). Presumably the apple may have also been cremated but that is a trivial detail since even were it not it would have long since rotted away it being now decades and decades since his demise.

What I think may have happened is he was assassinated while living in house arrest and undergoing his sentenced chemical castration.  A prominent thinker as well as item of significant security interest coming out of the closet in those days was strongly frowned upon, afterall.  The cover-up of the details then would have been to save face.

Generally, when there is only one official forensic autopsy done which is by a government agency and it is not possible for the public or independent parties to conduct subsequent ones because the remains are afterwards destroyed, this gives one pause.

Next Week: The fate of Tesla's long lost Missing Death Ray perhaps (No I don't know where those blueprints went but I have a bit of a rough idea of what had happened to them!)? Hint: Discussed is the possibility of the intelligence agencies of multiple countries conducting covert operations simultaneously on it at the time, and then not too surprisingly, bungling it!

I had been internalizing my father's consistent negative feedback, was what was going on when at the time I had thought it was an inward withdrawl (away from dating) due to weariness from being rejected over and over.  It is far easier to draw the conclusion one is unlovable and should therefore not bother trying than to acknowledge the uncomfortable state of affairs for family dynamics which is, I do not want to go out because it makes my father angry.  It makes him angry should anyone like me because that contradicts the messages he gives me that I am, as he puts it, "worthless" and goes against his expressed contention that he is the only one in the house whom any females are supposed to 'like'.  He is not a young man, he is an old man, and that uncomfortable chronological observation getting made manifest that I am not a small child but an adult child shatters said diseased fantasy.
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I have been told in no uncertain terms that he feels no one should like me.  I have also been fed messages of how to him I am not supposed to be good at anything and there are times he has screamed at me how I am "nothing without" him. :roll:

When growing up in a household with a narcissistic parent, as an adult you often find yourself questioning your own self worth.  

There is also a developmental milestone you must reach in this scenario.  One which people in "healthy" families don't wherein you realize it isn't in your best interest to conform to the [mentally] diseased parent's negative expectations.
My dad has taken to screaming at me to go fuck myself and that he feels I ought to go to hell as a retort when he does his revisionist history number claiming he didn't do or say the awful things he said or did in order to avoid having to apologize when I go "but you did/do it all the time."

I don't particularly like that he feels he is entitled to continuously put down the other people he lives with and know that despite his out-of-proportion tantrums wherein he goes from 0-60mph in terms of umbrage, that hello, verbally threatening physical violence to try intimidating the other person into adopting your skewed views means you know the argument is flimsy and you can't logic your way out.  I don't care about the physical intimidation but the threat of financial abuse is worrisome as I am not capable of financial independence just yet.
:depressed:

I am saddened that he is such a stupid and petty tyrant that he gets off on putting everybody else down, and also that he likes metaphorically shitting all over everybody else's projects and ideas.  That is how he chooses to live though and there is no changing him.
Dan Slott: Although he can be a bit of a flamebaiting curmudgeon from time to time, he handled my criticisms during Big Time and Superior in a fairly respectful way... it probably helps that I didn't call him any names, too. I like when he puts bits of his process, such as plot outlines and storyboards up on his Twitter feed.

Christopher Yost: This guy is quite down to earth and personable, and he gets my respect for the way he handles Kaine, mostly; I like what he did with the character.  Did you know he's done his hand/fair share of TV and movie writing as well? Neat.

Marc Guggenheim: I feel like this guy is seriously underutilized.  If you look at the mini-arc he did part of during Amazing Spider-man that was right before Grim Hunt during The Gauntlet, he had this rather complicated secret flashback reveal take on an untold bit of the Clone Saga showing that no, Ben Reilly was not perfect as a human being, despite being a physically perfect carbon copy of Spider-man.  He also portrayed evil degenerating Kaine in an interesting way that made him scary, which is how a villain leaning antihero is supposed to be! Bring back Damon Ryder as Raptor too while you're at it! That was an interesting villain!
I haven't played Mecha Galaxy nor made any new stories for it in over a month and am wondering if my guild kicked me off due to inactivity.  I've been going through a lot of IRL crap and am working on an independent study project involving computational biology... but still! :frustrated:
It dawned on me the other day while my dad was screaming at me like a blooming idiot, and was spitting and foaming at the mouth, that perhaps the reason he hates me so much is because I am smarter than him.
:idea:
I like women just fine.
They however, do not typically feel that way toward me.
This would be because: a.) I do not have a car,
b.) At the present time, I do not have a great job,
c.) I live with my parents.

What seems strange to me (funny as in odd, not funny as in haha) is that even when they themselves lack above mentioned components A-C, they will still exhibit the overwhelming tendency to judge you, the male, negatively for not possessing said status objects.

The first isn't completely impossible to remedy,
The second is more nebulous and the third seems outside the scope of the realm of possibility for the time being.
Do I resent womankind as a whole for it like some sort of neandertal-esque moron? NO!
Does it make my potential pool of dating prospects quite limited? :depressed: YES!
:slamhead:

:laughing:

Reasons why: > Damned interesting
> Getting hugged and kissed can feel amazing... although that was a long time ago (and let's be frank, who the hell knows when or if the next time I'll get to experience that again might be).
> The process of dating itself, the picking out of activities to do together in an attempt to get to know bits and pieces of one another in an attempt to determine a degree of further possible compatibility... :blahblah: this in itself can actually be a pretty enjoyable thing.  I say can be because there are a few limiting qualifiers that are rejoinders to this generality.  These are: a.) It's not as enjoyable when you are broke (since EVERYTHING, just about pretty much EVERYTHING you may want to take somebody with you to is going to cost money).  B.) Some people are so full of drama that they try to make going with you to a movie or to a restaurant to share a meal, to the cafe to talk over some drinks, etc. into a bad, high stress experience rather than a pleasant activity.  C.) Other people's parents can be highly prejudiced and give you shit for going out with their daughter based not on your treatment of her but other superficial crap that shouldn't really matter as much like... oh, your perceived socio-economic status (how much money they think you and your parents make), skin color, family's religion, and so on. 

This is all assuming you actually can find somebody who would be amenable to going out with you, which in of itself can also be mindnumbingly tricky, depressingly frustrating and an overall bleak endeavor.

Other possible complications can include the following: Your asshole father hits on your date (which no, she is not going to find charming thank you, but will definitely for sure come across as creepy), puts you down in front of her (thanks dad!), or makes you out to be some sort of unemployed, incompetent loser in order to scare her away.

On a less your own family hell based note, there is the matter of all the ridonkulous hell your date's family will put you through, for daring to assume you might possibly be good enough to be going out with him or her, without the parents having been the ones to have preselected you! Let me explain that a bit further: You can also be given all sorts of inappropriate grief about supposedly not being good enough to be with their little princess because you happen to have a disability (so glad to know that we are living in such enlightened times! :sarcasticclap:), how long you might be taking to obtain your degrees/certifications or why the hell haven't you managed to become the owner of your own company for fuck's sake and if so, why is it only a company of its given particular size instead of larger?
See, people's parents are kind of greedy icky curmudgeons who through generations of brainwashing have worked it into their piggy little reptilian hindbrains that who you go out with and may possibly in some fluke maybe decide to settle down with, this does not get to really have to do with what you find interesting in a man or woman thank you very much. No, that doesn't matter to them. What matters to these parasitical worms is how much of a free ride do they perceive being able to hitch off you and your family if you happen to go out with their special prince/princess... how much goodies are there to be ransacked, what status by association is to be gained, and most importantly, (the ever present) WHAT WILL THE NEIGHBORS THINK? :faint:
So... I got steamrolled by the pacing of this course I'm taking when I walked in and that was the crystallizing moment for me that I probably am not quite completely ready for independent living just yet.

Also, living for a year by myself in a town where I don't know anybody or have any friends kind of ratcheted my social anxiety up to 11. So yeah, going back to my hometown... and going to focus on my research (for once! GEEZ).
Old men who think simply because they are older than you that somehow irrationally makes them correct, and who will stubbornly argue that you are wrong in something that is your field of expertise or even though they are wrong and it is something they personally genuinely don't know fucking anything about (the way you can tell is it becomes increasingly evident as you listen to them, based on what they state about said thing or position the longer you listen to them go on about it ;) ), simply because you are younger than them... They also tend to be particularly awful about this when the person is a woman or child. Seriously, dude, I'm younger than you, but if it's something in my chosen field, and you're arguing with me, and it is a subject you don't know shit about, and the thing you are arguing you are right about and I must be wrong for thinking because I am younger than you is stupid level wrong, arguing harder doesn't make you somehow more right... It makes you into an asshole.

Girls who think simply because they have a vagina you should want to automatically be trying to please them and be giving them things that they want/like... Okay, you aren't really a queen or an empress, and even if you are really pretty on the outside, being a stuck up bitch about it isn't going to win points with anybody who has an active brain, Amirite (IKR, srsly)?

People who don't see the problem in choosing to use their freedoms of speech and expression to limit the freedoms of speech and expression of other people. No asshole, ballyhooing that people are impinging on your right to pursue whatever bizarre disturbing you fancy to be attention grabbing or trendy political viewpoint, lifestyle, etc. is not an effective smoke screen to cover your ass from that you are bullying people. :cough: Not to me.

Conservatives where when you disagree with them think the retort you should "get out of their country" is a valid way to end an argument. Look, okay, it is highly fucking presumptuous to assume that everybody else shares your exact views, let alone that you are somehow in the magical thinking irrationally based position somehow (God only knows how you arrived at such a self-important conclusion) to be speaking for an ENTIRE nation's worth of people.  Oh really? Have you polled and asked them, did you collect sample data? No, you probably didn't, you just enjoy listening to yourself and may have frequented a forum of other likeminded assholes to your particular bias enough to delude yourself into mistakenly assuming that every other person who is good, reasonable and possessing of his or her major faculties would be in agreement with you.  That's a frigging big and ill-founded assumption! :frustrated:

Next comes liberals who push moral legislation to force other people to live in a way they feel is best or correct. Assholes. Who in the name of sweet Californian Barbara Boxer and Diane Feinstein do you flipping think you are to be presuming what is the one true good path for an entire populace to have to take? Research the stuff first before ramrodding your stupid feelings based opinions onto everybody else, think about the possible long term effects it is going to have on society and if it even WILL help out the stupid environment FIRST, then go telling people what to do, ok? :rage: Fucking SHEESH.


The blue collar working class proles I grew up around, for repeatedly asking or insinuating if I was maybe like some sort of homosexual or whatever because in their limited capacity they can't wrap their heads around a guy who has a brain being able to like chicks :facepalm:.  I guess what bothers me about that is it doesn't necessarily go away when you stop being a kid, some of my more white trash seeming extended relatives are still doing it to me, to this very day!

Religious fundamentalists... Okay, look buddy (and I am using this term extremely loosely), if I get irked when people do that crap for little dumb shit like politics, do you seriously want to open the you think you are one of the few and only chosen to have right and position to be speaking for the entire rest of the universe as well as God, particular can-of-worms?  That just takes the cake as a whole new level of above and beyond special jerkassery! :sarcasticclap: Nice job.

Which nearly brings us to the next group in my list, violent gangs: You stupid shithead, there is bound to be a special place in hell for the type of douchebag who thinks harassing travelers, attacking individuals while in a pack/posse and killing other dudes just because you don't like them is a legitimate expression of machismo in their day to day life.  Why aren't you in jail already? That or eventually getting shot/stabbed and left for dead to bleed out in the gutter of a slum because your dumbass gets betrayed when a deal or job goes sour are the only ultimate futures for those sort of careers in crime.  That's kinda a severe glass ceiling, don'tcha think? 

People who act overly childish by choice despite being full well able to act like an adult when they feel that the situation fits (typically, if doing so is to their own advantage),... Retaining or choosing to exercise a childlike sense of wonderment about the world around you is one thing, and a good one at that.
insisting on acting like a child to present yourself as supposedly pure and innocent when you are well into your late teens, 20s, 30s and beyond, to be obnoxious, since you think you are like, this teh total perfect master manipulator and everybody else therefore must = a herpaderp is the kind of childishness I'm talking about.  Look, you are a grown ass man/woman, throwing tantrums and passive-aggressively creating chaos when you don't get to have things be 100% your way 100% or more of the time is not cute. Nor is baby talking at somebody purposely mispronouncing words the way a little kid would thought of as particularly attractive the majority of the time... Unless you are saying it to an actual infant, kthnx.  Also, I know some of the people who do that may be doing so as leftovers from a survival mechanism because they grew up in an abusive home where you'd get actively punished any time you acted independently of your overbearing parent(s), but in the Real World, you don't need to be doing that too in order to survive, and for gods sake please don't act surprised and hurt about it if you persist in doing that in your interactions and are wondering why people generally don't tend to take you seriously.  Don't fucking immaturely take it out on the rest of the world and anybody unfortunate enough to bump into you that your homelife wasn't Leave-It-to-Beaver or The-Honeymooners enough.  That isn't our goddamned fault! :roll:

As a corollary to that, having sex between a pair of consenting adults, the choices to smoke or drink, enjoying horror movies, these are things that are bad when you are a kid.  As a grown up you should probably just get over it if you don't like that there are other people who happen to like some or all of these things.  Come to think of it, that also can be the case one can argue in favor of for several types of pornography, smut, erotic literature and art, etc. :laughing:
You are a grown up now.  The reality is these things are a part of adult life and the choice of how to deal with each one, these are mostly individual decisions. How you choose to live your life and what you do to get some rocks off or relax and enjoy naughty whatever in the privacy of a closed bedroom while behind your own home doors is not the entire damned community's business to be Judgey McJudgerton prudes about, so long as it doesn't involve keeping live prisoners as for real personal slaves chained up somewhere completely beholden to you for food and water or the abuse of children or animals, possibly also including things involving desecration of the dead, then goddamn enjoy yourself (and while you're doing that, leave me the hell alone too, ok? You Goddamned WEIRDO).  I support the right of people to enjoy getting to be a bit freaky, as long as they are mature enough to get when it is and is not appropriate to be that way, and grasp that we don't all share all the exact same fetishes as they do.  Try not to act grossed out on finding out that your neighbor or friend is into "some different stuff" than you. Be flexible, you can expand your mind and who knows, pick up a thing or two to spice up things in the bedroom arena between you and a lover because some of that stuff out there, you can be pretty fucking damned creative.  I've only ever had two real life girlfriends, and neither of them were exactly shining examples of being sophisticated in that regard let alone terribly open or supportive about exploring any of that stuff, so my experience IS limited but intellectually and conceptually I get how different types of intercourse COULD BE fun and that a willingness to explore that stuff with a romantic partner can be used as a good tool to enrich the relationship (duh). :facepalm:

Yes, there are people who aren't afraid to enjoy sex. No matter how much you rant and rave how evil you think that is, you can't turn back time to uninvent birth control, condoms, etc. because there will STILL be people who ARE more comfortable with exploring their and other people's bodies than you who will do all of that stuff anyway.  So you know, none of this abstinence only bullpuckey. What Century is it that we are in?  If you choose to personally abstain or have preference of "waiting for the right person", :roll: or "saving yourself for marriage" then cool story brah, and as a reasonable individual I am going to respect that about you, but stfu with the crap about how everybody else around you should/has to/had better be that way too or you think God is going to get mad, send out plague-apocalypses, open a rift in the mortal world that is an opening mouth of hell and/or society is going to collapse because you are so blasted sure every sexually active nonmarried person or doing for recreation reasons instead of solely for procreation couple is 115% sure damned straight going to Hell. ...
:ohmygod:

Now I have to pause and take a breath because the sex one was longwinded.
Where was I? Oh yeah,
I also can't stand people who give you a long series chain of commands for duties and or tasks to carry out then while you are still in the process of carrying those instructions out, attempting to follow it to the best of your ability, Lord Lady Dumbass takes it upon him or herself to interrupt you from it, mid task to ask you why/how come it is you haven't done something else which was totally not on the list of stuff they gave you.  :megaphone: That is because you haven't shut up and let me finish the first list of stupid things, stupid, and if I stopped doing it to do that completely different other thing you'd remembered at the last second, then I wouldn't be doing as you'd asked, now would I?  Either you are deliberately trolling me when you are doing that, or you are too incompetent at sequencing to understand people can only do a certain number of tasks at a time and still do them to completion, meeting to your satisfaction.  Endlessly being mentally yanked from a bit of this to a bit of that to oh hey do this thing over here, no, now I want you to do the other one, but how come you didn't finish the other other one... is about as mindnumbingly frustrating as it is exhausting to deal with.
fuck off and chill with the ordering people around, oh would-be-supreme General. :lol:  If I become frustrated and make it evident through tone of voice during situations like that, or take you aside from your zeal of giving rapid directions of carrying complexity at breakneck speed, then I am "being mean.". It hurts your feelings and you should like me to feel bad for doing so.  :sarcasticlap: My mom does this to me during instances when she gets drunk; when she's sober she tends to be a bit better about not doing it too much/often.

Narcissistic paranoids: these are the ones who act like and express the opinion they are in constant fear when going outside, interacting with people, meeting new folks, etc. that they are self-important enough to warrant exercising a constant anxiety ridden vigilance because freaking everybody is out to get/rape/steal from/arrest/kill them, for whatever fabricated reason.

a. This is insulting to people and really considered to be incredibly poor manners and b.  Chances are, for most people, you really aren't important enough for everybody out there potentially wishing illwill toward you to pursue doing said horrible nightmare things to.  Everybody else, they probably don't care or have reason to notice who you are. Try to let it go...
This is a first world problem, being so scared of a news report on a thing you saw about a single crime occurring in isolation or some dramaticization of it you heard one time that everybody has to be personally out to get you, personally.  Not a whole lot of people even know that you exist, and unless you give them good reason to want to, aren't going to,  sure there are a few psychos and jerkheaded bullies, the occasional deranged violent loonie but those AREN'T everybody, so get a grip. You don't KNOW everybody, so all that this attitude is going to accomplish is you won't enjoy yourself and will miss out on a. Metric shirt on of new experiences.  Might happen to you? Oh please! If it was happening to you, that would be legitimate but if you're idly sitting by worrying that you think, from your privileged position of luxury that it MIGHT POSSIBLY happen to you someday, and therefore your only recourse is to always be afraid of everybody and to never dare to ever go anywhere or do anything... Then it probably isn't happening to you.  Please come back when you have a real, actual problem going on which you would like people to help you solve, and don't waste a friend or relative's time with made up things to worry about, ok?  They aren't all automatically always going to be out to get all the time, specifically you, all the time, just because you saw/heard about something bad happening somewhere to someone else and it grabbed your imagination due to how grisly the thing in question was.
I didn't make a New Year's Resolution this year.  Not because I think myself to be perfect and not needing of areas to concentrate in improvement on but because my usual one, to swear less, I typically find myself to wind up breaking partway through the coming year each time I make it.

I don't meet people very often.
Making a resolution to try and change some of that seems pointless if there isn't an idea or plan to go about how on enacting steps toward that.

I recognize this as Being of the same category of thing that is preventing me from resuming dating.
I feel that it would be pointless to resolve asking out girls more without a plan of attack as it were in order to go about doing so in a more er, intelligent? Planned out? Manner.
As I've no idea which strategies to use to go about finding a girl who would actually WANT to go out with a boy possessing my own particular talents, I have repeatedly come up against the depressing realization due to repeat observation that the more unremarkable and generic a fellow is, the more likely he is to successfully attract the "average" girl.  Like attracts like, yes?
Well, that is rather unfortunate then because where do you go to find the type of person to go out with who actually likes that you are interested in science and art, for example?
I feel that the real brainiac and hardcore inventor is Steve Wozniak and that though he is celebrated and despite his passing away from cancer a few years ago that if you take away all that hype around him Jobs was more the marketer and sales genius.

I am an adherent in belief in the theory of multiple intelligences but would be willing to wager that in terms of sheer general IQ points data-wise when you crunch the numbers that Woz holds the higher intellect of the two.  If you don't believe me look into some of his old pet projects such as Wheels of Zeus, a personal company that specialized in (among other gadgets) novel applications of wireless GPS technology way ahead of its time for stuff like tracking chip collars for people's pets and "find it" transmitters to put on keychains for looking up where it is you've misplaced your car or house keys. Apple computer bought him out on that in order to shut WoZ down inherently because IMO they felt threatened and it was to prevent the potential of receiving competition from one of their own people.

This isn't the only example of Apple doing this either I suspect.
You might say their corporate behavior is somewhat shifty.

I might if given the opportunity very much like to get to meet Mr. Wozniak someday.  After all, there is a street named after him in downtown San Jose, "Woz Way".  I find him to be the much more interesting individual of the two, in that despite lacking Jobs's business acumen, Wozzy as a technologist appeals to me from a scientific perspective; it is the body of his inventions that is impressive.

Anticompetitive dickery aside, another thing I dislike about Apple's approach to things is the way which they are always sold on the market so goddamned expensive.  I checked online and this little 16GB iPad. I'd won retails for $399 (USD).  As another example, I went to the Apple online store to look into those little plastic external carrying covers people use that fold into a stand to prop up their iPads and they had the gall to expect people to shell out $40 for one. :ohmygod:

The walled garden software approach toward an iDevice's software environment is also a mixed bag. :facepalm: On the one hand you are much less likely to catch a virus when free roaming cyberspace and casual computing on a Mac, true. However, on the other, it makes coding things for one a pain in the butt.  Apple has a very certain way they like doing things and as a developer, particularly a third party developer, having to adhere to all their unique proprietary standards to get a stamp of approval you made your application be 100% Apple friendly seems unnecessarily Byzantine.
This is why I was cracking up during the Flash vs. HTML5 debacle that rocked the blogosphere late in Jobs's life.  Neither Apple nor Adobe had much validity to claim they were being proponents of "Open standards", yet each side recognized it as a popular buzzword and had their industry leaders spouting it.
You see one of the last actions of the late Steve Jobs was to condemn Flash and decide from that point forward Macs should go Flashless.  What was going on was Apple and Adobe were going through the process of renewing or initiating a deal and the Apple folks didn't like the terms Adobe wanted.
This seems a shame because Flash Studio in its earlier versions when packaged with a Mac made for an awesome authoring environment (Part of me would like to think it was Steve Jobs's cancer talking when he made that decision rather than the man himself).
This wouldn't be the only time bruised egos caused Apple to break off and go its own separate direction rather than compromise though.  There is an earlier precedent.  you see, Apple and Microsoft have had an at times precarious relationship that has had its rough patches.  One of the most noteworthy of these would be when Apple had the silly idea that even though the majority of the computerized workforce has an overwhelming tendency to use iterations of Microsoft Office that this was no good for Apple users.  They were better than that.  Using the same thing as almost everybody else for multimedia presentations to make slide shows because it is ubiquitous and universal was a weed polluting the fruit of the walled garden. So, Apple temporarily tried making its own slide presentation program to attempt at competing with PowerPoint, which is why on some generations of iMacs the files are saved in a weird ass extension that nobody else's computer can read very well.

I do not have iTunes and am generally opposed to owning an MP3 player.  It is for a philosophically different reason than why I am one of the few people who has consistently from day 1 refused to join Facebook though.  If you really must listen to an MP3 you can totally do so on any "modern" computer.  What I take issue with is the necessity of being plugged into listening to your favorite songs all day long everywhere you go.  To me, rather than being a status symbol illustrating your material wealth that demonstrates a spiritual poverty, since you are tuning out the world around you, not listening to the sounds of your environment when outside and ignoring nature. One isn't going to notice birds and other animals if you have your earbuds in.  Also, it can be a little dangerous.  I like for example as a pedestrian or person on a bicycle, listening for the sounds of oncoming cars when I am crossing the street!

On the bright side, Apple products can be a whole lot of fun to use.  I remember my first computer being a hand me down Macintosh LCII given to me by my mother.  The many hours which my beither and I spent playing games and looking at educational multimedia CD ROMs on her PowerPC (weird name but that was the model of desktop Mac that came out before the iMac series), taking full advantage of its at the time powerful multi speed CD ROM drive (it sounds ridiculous now but in the 90s how fast your CD drive was a big deal and determined which games you could play on your machine; I seem to remember there being double, quad and 6x speed drives as well as an elusive 8x speed drive used in particularly high end machines... but by the time 16x and 32x speed CD ROM drives came out nobody cared anymore).

Quicktime is delightful and there is a virtue in using an Apple for its capabilities as a desktop publishing platform.  I like both Macs and PCs.

Though the languages used in coding things for a Mac tend to be powerful and allow them to oftentimes get by remarkably well with fewer hardware resources (I suspect this may be from some aspect behind a quirk to how they utilize memory), to return to the doublebladedness of a walled garden system environment these are not the ideal codes with which to always run/build everything in all situations.  One may note with some bemusement that in this regard the walled garden would seem to also possess a glass ceiling and that perhaps it is a greenhouse.
It's... strangely more counter-intuitive than I had been led to believe by other people.  Then again, that's probably because for years and years I was using mostly Windows and the occasional odd bit of Linux crud instead.

I'm not a big fan of Apple products but as long as it lets me read ebooks, play some games and look at deviantArt then I guess it's ok.
:shrug:

Also, my finger is strangely grease repellent and so by extension touch screen aversive. :doh:
Am I the only one who has a hard time taking hacktivists who can't even use proper English grammar seriously?
:O_o:
Ooh, scary. :laughing: A bad movie (or two) offends them so they go and lose their shit and attack a corporation. :laughing:
So lame.

Look, that isn't how you play America-ball.  We make fun of stuff we don't like. If you don't like us, make fun of us.
Proving yet again that they are a poor sport who can't take being made fun of.  If you don't like a movie then as a regime you've got every right NOT to ALLOW it to be shown within your territory but when you start telling other countries what movies you think they can and cannot watch outside your own sovereign area... that's not supposed to fly, ok?
:O_o:  Jesus Christ Hollywood, stop giving them so much attention.  You're supposed to publicly ignore bad behavior to make it go away while in private choosing what sort of a response to have.

I think maybe George Clooney is onto something. Even though he probably made the worst Batman, but if he was brave enough to don a suit that had what are now infamously referred to as "batnipples", I guess that takes balls.
He's got some petition going to various studios and other actors and people, to request Sony not be such a glass jaw about it and find their spine, show the movie some other time later in a different format because other countries can't and shouldn't be telling you which movies you can and cannot make to show people. They can choose whether to allow it to be shown in their own theaters or not but you don't go around telling a different country than you what movies it can and can't make/show.

North korea be like: :iconrageguyplz: "YOU CAN'T BE DOIN' DAT"
and media be all: :nuu: "ERMAHGERDNOES WE WON'T SHOW IT SO PLZ DON'T HERT US!1!!"
Meanwhile, USA President & the Cabinet be like: :O_o: :unimpressed: "WTFis this shit?"
:facepalm: "YOU INTERRUPTED IMPORTANT CUBA AND MIDDLE EAST FOREIGN POLICY STUFF BECAUSE A TINY POOR COUNTRY RUN BY A DESPOT THAT LIKES TO SABER RATTLE IS THROWING A TANTRUM, AS USUAL, OVER SOMETHING IDIOTIC?" :| "GTFO."

Also, you know, while I think that the movie in question was done to be outrageous on purpose and probably isn't "very good", there are much worse movies you could be wanting to go and blacklist, NK. :roll::sarcasticclap:  For example, just about anything with Jonah Hill in it you'd have my (and a ton of other people's) blessing. Seriously, to me that guy just isn't even really that funny but the media keeps hyping him up like if they put him in enough stuff it might confuse some of us as movie-going audiences into collectively hallucinating that he's somehow funnier than he is. :doh:  I'm half-joking by the way in case you couldn't figure that out :shrug: but honestly I find him to be really not that good and often wonder why the heck he gets cast so often in stuff as of recent (to date, my best possible explanations are that either he has a really good agent or is extremely just ridiculously well connected). :O_o:

Bottom-line and take away message: Semi-civilized nations ban stuff they dislike being shown within their own territory.  Silly jackasses go and try to police what other countries show.
So the Middle East is still a big f*cking mess but I heard some news that the Obama administration may be willing to attempt some things to open up interaction with Cuba?

That would very much improve our relations with much of the Latin world in the Central and South Americas... in spite of the tainted history we've got reputation-wise from historically murking about a whole lot down there and in the Caribbean.  Think about how much it would reduce dependency on Middle Eastern powers for oil... and would be one of those rare examples of America for Americas helping itself out in a non crippling way (:hmm:!).

Maybe it is about time for a long overdue ending of the long held embargo. :shrug: It will be interesting to see how this plays out.

I don't think it is the ghost of Christmas NAFTA per se (:fingerscrossed) but do feel that the United States and its neighbors could be doing more to be helping each other out and in doing so, that this could economically benefit all parties involved (!).

Hey, wake up and smell the ersatz coffee!  There is a helluva lot we could be doing politically that involves our immediate neighbors instead of concentrating so freaking much resources way further abroad. :shrug:

You see, have a tendency to grief me about being the only nerd in the family.
I am glad to be only obligated to go see them at most maybe either once or twice each year.

When I do though, it is always the same lines of questioning.
Why are you still in school?  Because I am studying science and medicine. Oh, you must be stupid to be taking so long :trollface: No (you jackass), it takes a long-ish time to get those kinds of degrees and also there are some external personal circumstances which are waylaying me.
Are you sure you wouldn't rather be doing something else instead (of the course of study which it is that you have been pursuing)? Yes because hello (dumbass), I'm just about finished with my first degree and it would be rather assanine to this far in decide to up and start all over again from ground one in a completely different field. :facepalm:
Do you work yet?  That's a bit complicated in that while there are things which individuals and certain organizations do pay me money to do, none of that is what you in your limited way might consider to be "a proper job."
How come you still have your mom and dad doing things to help you out sometimes (I don't know, maybe because they care a bit more about how I turn out than how you guys did about your kids, relatives? :shrug:)?
Do you drive yet? Long story short, no, no I don't. I get to most of the places I want to go by train, bus or carpool, in the interests of saving money.
Why don't you have a girlfriend? I don't know :roll: maybe because girls simply just don't tend to like me that much*? :rage:  Oh, you are going to in a predictably lame fashion then have sniggering implications you suspect I might be some sort of a homosexual? :sarcasticclap: First off that's not terribly politically correct and you sound like a redneck to be calling people that in a disparaging manner, and secondly well no, I'm not one, so shut the f*ck up!


Also, in other news:
Dad has again managed to break 'my car' this time via manhandling the emergency break.  I don't drive it yet so it mainly just sits outside my parents' house and I let them borrow it when their cars aren't working or one is being repaired.  It is a vintage Mercedes which gets pretty crappy mileage so what I was intending to ultimately do is retrofit it with a biodiesel or electric engine to render that issue a moot point. :shrug:
He has also again proceeded to cause me unnecessary drama by despite my telling him off for it, insisting on pretending to be me and demanding things from my professors.  This is in spite of my explaining to him the scenario factors which make this gee, probably an incredibly bad idea to do since I am really in no position to be demanding anything from them in terms of special favors. <- :headache: More academic fires for me to have to put out. :stare:

 
*Were there to be someone my age of the opposite gender who considers me to be "datable", I would possibly be more than happy to take her on said dates but no, there isn't so that's (obviously) why I do not.

Observation: I am beginning to notice a trend in which the less closely related through blood I am to someone, generally the better it is that you and I will be able to get along. ^^;
:sarcasm: I am also now beginning to gain certain greater appreciation/understanding in why it is that in the tree of life there are examples of lower animals which as part of their life cycle will instinctively devour/kill their relatives. :skullbones:
I think what I'd best like for Christmas is perhaps a bound collection of HP Lovecraft short stories.
The universe is a vastly large and impersonal place, and in Lovecraft's various Dream Cycle and mythoses (mythosi? However it is one would pluralize that word), trying to carelessly probe its cosmic depths can typically have horrific consequences (that was like one of his go to plot twists, c'mon).
:hmm: Well, that and some DAZ studio 3D art zone gift certificates.

My father has decided that he does not like Christmas because in his own mind that excuses him from having to buy other people any presents.  So, mother and I are having a holiday anyway around him. ...I took my little brother to the comic store and bought him some Iron Man Armor Wars sort of figures featuring Tony's Hulkbuster suit for when he tried to fight the Incredible Hulk and that one weird Samurai Armor with the sword arms he wore once in the 90s for a storyline where I think the writers had him go to Japan. I also got my brother a Batman New 52: Future's End one shot with a holographic cover where Bats has to team up with The Riddler to stop Calendar Man from carrying off a New Years caper (see Calendar Man is weird in that he only commits crimes either on particular days of the week or holidays, but what makes that sinister instead of just silly is he can plan stuff out way in advance, specifically to occur on those days... because, hello, he's Calendar Man; Alright, alright! I know, that's still a lame villain because basically his shtick is just having time management skills).
I'll give this a shot though:

Corporate personhood:  When a business (typically a large one) possesses similar rights to those held by an individual citizen, such as but not limited to:  being able to have lawyers there to "represent its interests in court," having to pay taxes in a similar manner to how an individual does, etc.

The reason why this bothers some people is that if corporations are afforded more/greater rights than individuals in a society, this can be worrisome.

Also, can manifest itself during intellectual property rights battles?
Example: Butthurt whinging by media executives during DRM + anti-piracy types of court cases against file sharing sites... will at its core in the arguments given (happen to) rest on the concept of corporate personhood, methinks.
To me, on a philosophical level, it isn't the horrible beast or freakish creature (external) that is the awful monster necessarily, but our human sense of self-entitlement, having run amok (internal).  That is the scariest thing. It's this irrational notion that we DESERVE the things that we want and that depriving other people of these things, taking it from them (forcibly) is somehow both fine and good because in our screwed up minds we think that makes us get closer toward having them or have the things that we desire that allows some of the sickest depths of human bad behavior to occur, methinks.

If you listen to the kinds of excuses murderers (and to an extent, also rapists) make in jail about why they did what they did, you may spot it.


You HAVE NO F*CKING RIGHT TO PUT SOMEBODY ON THE STREET, who is a bystander, THEIR LIFE INTO YOUR OWN HANDS.
Claiming ignorance of the law is not an excuse for breaking it and don't think court's will swallow down what is simply at it's best an immaturity.

The same can be said about stealing their hard earned possessions. Food, clothes, medicine, cars, etc.

Yet, there is a strange exception in the realm of intangibles.  One might attempt to argue that if one is stealing an idea for the right reasons (to promote spread of it even amongst those who would otherwise not be able to afford access to information that either a.) it can be established would generally improve their quality of life, or b.) reduce certain societal or social inequities) that there may be some merit. <- :cough: piracy :cough: and why it will likely never, ever truly go away despite the best attempts of law enforcement and squandered resources of governments that have been appropriated toward said quasi-property defense).

See, to me morality is not so clear cut nor simpleminded in all cases as some would ideally have it be.

Let me present to you another case:
Some people argue that it is bad for doctors and researchers to make money from their inventions or discoveries and that the only reason spurring them to do what they do should be contributing towards the common good. This is in full ignorance of the fact that said experts are human beings, as human beings we contribute as (albeit very small) players in a much larger economy, and that it costs money to live and buy food to eat.  Also, since it is a business, one must be able to recoup the costs involved in research and developing a new piece of technology or technical advance.  These may be financial, or in terms of man hours that have been translated into a certain generally agreed upon amongst educated circles amount of finances... one would be led to conclude.

This somewhat ignorant notion that people should be doing things only for love of the thing is the same fetid tripe you shove at an artist, trying to guilt them out of wanting a living wage, or an intern, trying to eke out secrets of his or her plied trade as they establish themselves as a gear within his or her chosen industry.  Oh but it should just be for joy of getting the PRIVILEGE of being allowed to do said thing, go people... who have conveniently forgot that this is how these people, they make a living this way, and it is also their livelihood.  Would you argue they should do their job for free, for you, the bloated and spoiled consumer, but also that they should not issue any complaints about it, and that since this works just fine for you that you don't see any reason to have want to listen to the wants of the craftspeople?
:O_o:

I notice a vacillation in this pattern, what started out an argument in favor of piracy (in so much as it relates to promoting the general spreading of information and works over legal and financial barriers, in a (hopefully) beneficial way), risks sounding preachy in favor of such measures against said spreading as DRM (something I personally find to be an abomination in that it restricts the owner/user in how they may use or copy said copy of media they purchased, rented, borrowed or are viewing, :sarcasticclap: "for their own 'good'." <- and thus removing room for the person to explore his or her own right and wrong, journey of personal development, etc.). :headache:
It is not a hypocrisy in so much as it is a reflection upon the complexity though, perhaps?

Another pattern in this analysis is that what had started out arguing against over-reaching sense of self-entitlement enacted by selfish people (narcissists) in a twisted mirror way parallels the whinging of creators not to have them be expected to provide their goods and services for free and for no profit. 

The difference being that being paid for rendering goods and services in a job is not the same thing as murdering a person... usually.
Wow... that got all kinds of dark and f*cked up.

Did I mention I've never taken any real philosophy classes except one in humanism once as an elective because of how it tied into psychology?
Let's avert that mental circle jerk just for a moment though and give some thought to the core bits:
What makes a bad thing wrong and a good thing good?
Who is framing it,... who stands to benefit and who will be harmed? <- I like to think these things when constructing worlds and mythos' (mythoses? Mythosi? Good god the grammar on that ones conjugation feels sort of weird) in my works of fiction and theoretical, hypothetical arguments.

Obviously, either it is a control thing or there are some control things going on.  In unraveling that one may come to the deeper level of... either apathy and just wanting to mind ones own business, or mind f*ck-upedness.

Also, since it rapidly approaches 2AM, I can't help but feel that halfway through this I may just be splatting a bunch of pseudo-deep nonsense onto a page.  I will agree it is a type of work avoidance to be doing this sort of thing instead of homework but that was not the point of the analysis. :hmm: :?

It's like, how would I explain this?
I certainly don't feel *entitled* to a girlfriend but having someone to go out to things with is theoretically a good thing, and a "nice stuff to have going on in ones life"... whereas in practice it often becomes an exercise in how much neurotic drama and/or abuse + neglect can you withstand receiving from a stranger before you can't take it anymore and either run or walk away from it.  That or a case study in observing abnormal psychology in action (oftentime ;-P).  So despite continually reaching out and drawing back a bloody stump, one continues every so often to try again in the vain hopes that this time one's luck might be the littlest odd bit different. -?  Is it not better to set yourself up for bleak punishment than to live completely isolated from everyone eklse around you in unbroken perpetuity? That may be something to chew on.
Not wanting to get married nor start a family does not make me into the most 'orrible person in the world.
Despite what a few violently, severely traditionalist religious upbringing background-ed people might otherwise be led to believe.
However, having the belief that your beliefs must make you inherently superior to your neighbors? That seems to do a pretty nice job of it.

Also, I am studying medicine.

I find people who demand these things (of people in my station of life) to be... though not scary, somewhat disgusting.
They tend to follow this sort of a general plot formula: Guy or girl meets/tries to meet this other guy/girl.  Shit gets in the way to be the conflict.  Then, either they work through it together and happily ever after blah, blah, blah... or they don't and instead each winds up being with someone about equally as hapless, the end.

An idea I had for a romantic comedy: Features two normal people who are surrounded by other people who have superpowers. :shrug:  Has this been done already?

I'm a guy who lives by himself with a potato.  Let's just say that there's plenty of think time.