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"too bad you didn't come with us! There are cute girls here you are missing out!" <- @ a renaissance fair.
Though I like things that are medieval and history I feel that I have outgrown renaissance fairs due to in no small part how my dad decided it was suddenly his thing when it was something my mom and I used to do because she liked talking about her ancestral coat of arms and the family tartans. >_<
What I have decided to be more interested in now are war re-enactments. They turn my dad green because he thinks he is a peacenik even though he advocates violent revolution sometimes.
Also, my dad is pulling a revisionist history number because judging on how big a fit he threw the last time I went on a date and how much he fussed, fumed and tantrumed when he just realized I liked girls in the first place this is a ridiculously inappropriate thing for him to be telling me in the first place.
Mom and my shrink say it's ridiculous for him to get overcompetitive about everything with me like this.
Then again he wouldn't even let my mentally retarded little brother have ownership over taking a dump. The man is sick.
Everything always has to be all about him.
I love how he took my genetics book and read some of it for a week then proudly told me at the end of the week that even though I'd been studying it for years suddenly he felt he knew more about it than me.
This is the man who when I got a part time job screamed at me while I was brushing my teeth about how I shouldn't think that meant I was better than him and how he still made more money than me so how dare I get a job and that he preferred when I just borrowed money from him. To which I replied I got a job so I could have my own money to spend on things I wanted because whenever I asked him for stuff he tends to say no. So then at the store he starts second guessing my purchasing decision even though it isn't his money talking over my head and around me to the clerk. Rather humiliating. >_<;
Though I like things that are medieval and history I feel that I have outgrown renaissance fairs due to in no small part how my dad decided it was suddenly his thing when it was something my mom and I used to do because she liked talking about her ancestral coat of arms and the family tartans. >_<
What I have decided to be more interested in now are war re-enactments. They turn my dad green because he thinks he is a peacenik even though he advocates violent revolution sometimes.
Also, my dad is pulling a revisionist history number because judging on how big a fit he threw the last time I went on a date and how much he fussed, fumed and tantrumed when he just realized I liked girls in the first place this is a ridiculously inappropriate thing for him to be telling me in the first place.
Mom and my shrink say it's ridiculous for him to get overcompetitive about everything with me like this.
Then again he wouldn't even let my mentally retarded little brother have ownership over taking a dump. The man is sick.
Everything always has to be all about him.
I love how he took my genetics book and read some of it for a week then proudly told me at the end of the week that even though I'd been studying it for years suddenly he felt he knew more about it than me.
This is the man who when I got a part time job screamed at me while I was brushing my teeth about how I shouldn't think that meant I was better than him and how he still made more money than me so how dare I get a job and that he preferred when I just borrowed money from him. To which I replied I got a job so I could have my own money to spend on things I wanted because whenever I asked him for stuff he tends to say no. So then at the store he starts second guessing my purchasing decision even though it isn't his money talking over my head and around me to the clerk. Rather humiliating. >_<;
A war for my soul:
My father having recently become aware that yes, he too is made of the same stuff as us lesser mortals is theatrically making a big deal about it and making these baseless assumptions about how if he has health problems too that must mean he must therefore also be dying and so he is redoubling his efforts to control my every waking moment... telling me what he feels I should like and think and what it is I should want to go be doing even more than he ever has before. I'm not a carbon copy of him and so... this doesn't work. It does get "in my head" and rattle me though while I am attempting to do things. Which is probably why he does it. W
Irrational guilt trips:
My father is good at these.
One that strikes me as particularly odd is a financial one he does where he throws at me that because I am such a horrible human being for having supposedly cost him so very much money to raise that any and all earnings I make if and when I work from paychecks somehow ought to all go to him.
My mother has always been of the opinion that there should be a feeling of accomplishment you get from the tasks you complete and achievements you receive on your own from the sweat, physical and mental toil of one's own brow. Dad would tell me that everything which I do manage should only be through his grace of allowing it
Programming:
I do not know as much as I would like to about computer programming. The way I would think of computer languages then is as methods of arranging tasks. You order the small steps in a particular sequence with special formatting to have the machine go through a more complex process in an organized way. :hmm:
Apologies for having been neither on nor in much:
[I] have been working on my senior research project and fighting with depression issue crud.
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