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It would seem I have writer's block. Everything I would like to talk about in my research paper it looks like I already did. Then I found some things I will need to take out that were just filler to get people off my back who keep hassling me about how come I wasn't already done with the whole thing before I'd even started. 
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I'm trying to find a pattern in the articles I'd read or some new topic/subject I can tackle from the clusters I'd sorted by method and species... so that there is something to talk about to pad this thing out just a tad more to have the right word length...
.I'm trying to find a pattern in the articles I'd read or some new topic/subject I can tackle from the clusters I'd sorted by method and species... so that there is something to talk about to pad this thing out just a tad more to have the right word length...
A war for my soul:
My father having recently become aware that yes, he too is made of the same stuff as us lesser mortals is theatrically making a big deal about it and making these baseless assumptions about how if he has health problems too that must mean he must therefore also be dying and so he is redoubling his efforts to control my every waking moment... telling me what he feels I should like and think and what it is I should want to go be doing even more than he ever has before. I'm not a carbon copy of him and so... this doesn't work. It does get "in my head" and rattle me though while I am attempting to do things. Which is probably why he does it. W
Irrational guilt trips:
My father is good at these.
One that strikes me as particularly odd is a financial one he does where he throws at me that because I am such a horrible human being for having supposedly cost him so very much money to raise that any and all earnings I make if and when I work from paychecks somehow ought to all go to him.
My mother has always been of the opinion that there should be a feeling of accomplishment you get from the tasks you complete and achievements you receive on your own from the sweat, physical and mental toil of one's own brow. Dad would tell me that everything which I do manage should only be through his grace of allowing it
Programming:
I do not know as much as I would like to about computer programming. The way I would think of computer languages then is as methods of arranging tasks. You order the small steps in a particular sequence with special formatting to have the machine go through a more complex process in an organized way. :hmm:
Apologies for having been neither on nor in much:
[I] have been working on my senior research project and fighting with depression issue crud.
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What's up?
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